Thoughts

I watched Beautiful Mind two days ago. Nicely shot movie. Strong theme. Imagine...

Are we disillusioned as well ? Do we see things that aren't there? or perhaps more often do we ignore things that is there. Problem is there. The who loved you is there. The security you yearn for is there. There there there. But we don't see it.

Which is worse? Seeing imaginery things? or Making things invisible even though u know it is there?

John Nash is in his purest form. He was pure but not us. He saw genuine things because he has conviction so pure it leads to the "insanity" that we deem he is having. His passion so strong nothing can swift him.

He is not blind. We are the ones.

Tiding Up

So if without me moving out i will not be tiding my stuffs again and group them. Found many things that i chose to keep last time and yet wanting to throw it away this time round. After much effort i finally seal the boxes. I counted. 25 of them. So this is what my life is . 25 boxes of stuffs in my 25 of years on earth. Materially.

What do i keep and why do i keep them i ask myself. If i can only bring on box and go which one will i take ?

Of course we know we should not be judging our life with how much things we have materially. Thats why i only find few categories of things. 1) things my love ones give me 2) clothes 3) magic and books 4) CDs . Boiling it down further. it is just Daily Basic Neccessities, my love one and my hobby.

I will want to cut it down further. Maybe just my love one, two sets of clothes and a deck of cards.

Interesting 25 boxes. If you start to pack how many boxes would you have ? And how many can you do without ?

Moving out and on invisibly

Today i will be moving most of my stuffs into my new place. Perhaps a place that will be my very last. No more renting places. moving around. Gone are the floating days. Into my new place.

Clementi has been special to me. Before i even stayed here i am here when i was 15 years old because i was there looking for a watch as a present. For a student my age back then venturing out into new territories is really something special. Back then i didnt know that i would one time be spending more than 7 years here. Now it is time to move to another area rather permanently.

I will miss the feeling here. The proximity to NUS, to my familiar coffee shop and also people that i know around the neighbourhood. My landlord and her family. Nights of which i may be at the 24 hour coffee shop watching soccer. And yes my friend Yan Shan stays just acorss my block from my present rented room. Now she is moving and i am moving. But she gets to hang around in Clementi in her new block.

Even one of my girl friend was from clementi. My favourite fish shop. 4D shop. macdonalds and the run down Empress cinema theatre.

So many of these little memories will be left where it is while i start a new livng somewhere. Bukit Batok... erm ... will i eventually become familiar with it ? I believe so.

I come to liking the times when i move around. From one place to another. Each time having different people to stay with. Nothing is certain and from there i learn how unlucky or lucky i am to get landlords good and bad.

Perhaps the life living as someone under other's roof has trained me into who i am today. Independent and perhaps a bit more messy but yet i make things work out in the end. i sleep well. i get to live well. Alone yet not lonely because i spend little time in the room.

Now if i have a home to go back to. I see my beloved girl friend everyday till i sleep and till i wake up she will still be there. it will be a different life. indeed. so it is the beginning of something new but i think i seem to take it naturally and invisibly.

bye bye the footsteps i take each morning to work. bye bye the usual people i bump into. Clementi.. Doors closing.. tu tu tu tu...