A quiet moment

I am spending a quiet moment in the office on a holiday. With nothing to do really. So it is a quiet moment that i can spend with myself on a holiday. An excuse to be with myself and chat with myself.

I have yet to get out of silence because i have not ' sort it out yet ' . There should be a breaking point. A point when i can tell myself yes i have got out of this new shell that i need to get out of.

So there are just too much to need to re-evaluate. To re-evaluate whether there is a need to evaluate. Perhaps i have grown up and start to feel incompetent of handling much more. Even keeping stagnant makes me feel over-whelmed. So i have to stop receiving anymore. Anymore ideas, concepts, reasonings, theories etc etc and start living.

Getting close to nature, getting close to being a kid again. Perhaps i need to relinquish the thought of needing and wanting to be all encompassing. There is only so much i can do.

Will it cause me to eventually shut down communicating with the world? Or is just looking at flora and faunas the new way of my communication with the world?

counting counting... slowly i will not count myself with age. But more of how little i need to live with. How unimportant 'stuffs' are.

I catch myself again with why i am on this place call earth. Well this shall not be the question i need to ponder with.

Pondering doesn't neccesarily make me better now. I need alternative ways already. Give me life.