Life purpose

Does it happen to you that sometimes you feel more "holistic" then ever before? for example just after you watch some inspiring movie, read some inspiring book etc.

Then questions like " what is me? " , " my life purpose" , " i am not who i am " pops up. U suddenly feel like know more about life and even worse still you think you know enough to "break thru " life.

I think i am probably in that intricate stage now. So i am so not "practical" now. The old practical is gone. New practical is in.

it sort of make me less capable at work. Perhaps actually more capable because i am really calm at work. Depends on how you see it. It is a very dangerous shift. Imagine if you cant control your mind set well for this shift.

Anyway if you are reading this i am not sure how much u are catching also.

Holiness vs Practical dust and hustle bust life. Totally messy squashy.

A good question

Today my boss asked me, what do you plan to do in the next few years.

I stopped for a bit and said " i want to be happy", but nudge into slight uncomfortess after blurting that out. Because i think i answered it "wrongly"

My boss asked again. " I mean career-wise"

My heart says " whatever your question is driving, my answer is still to be happy"

I know she didnt get it. But i think business is business. I have to tell her what she needs to hear.

Oh well i dunno whether i messed up my chance of anything. But thats not that impt. i think i will be where i need to be.