Moving house

I just completed 3 days of BootCamp Moving House. Tiring. Tiring. Tiring. I have no time to think, rest and be with myself. Just pure labour and lots of water.

But now at least i get sometime to settle down with myself and start to taste my feelings and feel my feelings about this episode of moving house.

I love it. Its truly enjoyable to see everyone back at the same house moving from ONE to another. Its family. Its family to see all come together again for a common single minded cause. to build a house where all will love to be in and enjoy being in.

And it also feels just so satisfying that i am consciously making this happen.

I do not know who to thank on what i have received during this 3 days of moving house with my family members. its very uplifting for me and i will remember this for perhaps for life.

now we have a nice little house. hope that it will serve as a pivotal role for greater binding and understanding.

i will need time to let this sink it slowly. its a very good feeling to make this happen. a kodak moment for my mind.

It's her Wedding

" Hi would like to invite you to my wedding dinner on 30-nov fullerton. Let me know if you can come. " The message that burst thru my phone. It came from my secondary school friend . I told myself ok .. the day has arrived finally. Even though i have never consciously waited for this day but somehow it seems like a naturally closure somehow. Or perhaps not. Just a natural thought of self-emphaty or self-contemplation on life on the grandeur of things.

I replied the sms in the most welcoming fashion " yes i will be coming to celebrate your big day". This followed by so many seemingly unimportant questions. Who is he, what does he work as , how long have they been together, what is his name, is he a nice guy ... its all about he he he he he and wait.. its about she, will she be happy with him , has she found the guy she really likes, is this really for real. But no again. its really about me.

Its about me. Its about creating this drama in my mind that I needed. I toiled ard with the idea of bursting thru the heavy wooden doors of the room during her solemnization, shouting "wo fan dui" at engineer precision moment. I toiled ard with the idea of writing her a "goodbye" letter and put it in the angpow for her to read my feelings. i toiled with the idea of stuffing obscene amount of cash into the angpow to let her know perhaps she made the wrong choice. gosh how raw can this feeling get. This is soo close to human nature. So naked in front of me and for anyone who is reading this. plain drama but plain honesty.

but its just toiling. A mind stimuli when i have nothing to do on the train to work.

i enjoyed the dinner tonight. It has been a few very very busy days for me. I seemed to be on auto pilot mode since thursday. I am not able to get in touch with myself really till now when i am writing this. But this dinner was great. I get to chit chat with friends that we have not get to see for a bit ( well ten over years) . Its just another mind fuck again speaking to them because you start to ask just the most un-cultured questions like what are you doing now, and go yeah yeah yeah thats a very interesting job you have there. But deep inside you are punching the life calculator and compare his/her life with yours. And sadly often tricking yourself into believing that yours is just somewhat better than theirs.

People come to these weddings prepared. Amazingly true. Thinking of how to pan out a conversation with mr so and so or miss so and so . Calculated , motivated. Subtly trying to out trump somehow someway.

its just fun to be a by watcher to these mind dramas.

I perhaps played my role as well active and also counter active ones.

I think my friend is in good hands. I saw their photo montages ( those hour fillers that you can do without sometimes ) . They seem happy and the picture is just so well painted. I am not over excited but i think its a well planned out one. Her husband should be from a well to do family to start off with . He should be driven as well. So it sort of like made this calling to the little voice in me to let go and be fully convinced that she found someone really special. I am not at all bitter . its a kind of ... oh now thats how things is turning out to be for the girl whom you once wanted to give you all for.

i could probably not make this emotional at all. come and go. but i think my feelings are genuinely close to heart which i need to come in contact with. raw and naked with myself. human are afterall being with emotions. If not we will never live a colorful life.

the food was so so. nothing to shout about at all. the wedding plan was almost perfect. to the point of sterile. but its ok. we pay to go thru the motion. but i am glad i had some fun with my old friends and the waitresses.

I am starting to think again.. who else i would have made me feel the same way too.. i think only 1 more candidate fit the bill. This one is much stronger i guess. I may just burst thru the doors and really shout " wo fan dui "

sitex.me.ipod.crowd

Doesn't seem too long ago that i went for the COMEX and this year its the first year that i am attending SITEX held at EXPO. I really do not want to make this too funny because perhaps it is really not funny at all being at this SITEX.

I reached this long awaited electronic gala for perhaps a month. Aim is simple. And that it is "perhaps" to buy a facourite gadget that i have been longing for. The Ipod Touch Generation 2. Its really yawn yawn to some people on this Apple product. But i guess its really my slow build up to it that is making this into a drama by itself. I remember i spent months talking to my friend about this. As he owns a 1st generation Ipod Touch he is able to relate really well with my desire to have one.

Its like ANY other purchase process. You long for it. You dy for it. You saved for it. You talked about it. And its all orgasmic. Till the point you buy it. got the product in your hand and suddenly ... EMPTINESS. I don't mean emptiness in your bank. But more of emptiness in your heart.

The build up today was really shopping around, well horsing around the 4 different booths that re-sells Apple Products. I never felt so aunty before. Its like buying vegetables at the wet market. But just more high tech now. I grabbed the brochures and the innocent sales girl near me and interrogated her as if she is Steve Job. I didnt ask the girls ANYthing about the functionality. I asked them " what free gifts you give ah " . Now thats so aunty. Its like shopping to "earn" that few freebies. Now perhaps i start to understand why housewives love to yah-ya about saving 10 cents or 20 cents. Just perhaps . I do .

In any case i settled for a booth name : GreenLight which is actually under Song Brothers for an Ipod Touch 32gig . The other three booths selling at 648 SGD. but GreenLight sold it to me at 603 SGD. I saved about 45 dollars.

For those who are either faithfully reading my blogs for entertainment reason i just want to share with u this tip. Greenlight tries to sell me a 2 year extended warranty on the Ipod touch at 78 Dollars. So i get 3 year warranty ( 1 yr by Apple, 2 year by Song Brothers) . So that will make it 603 + 78 = 681 SGD. And they will throw in a good pair of ear phones.

Did i bite it ? Not at all. Do you think Song Brothers will do a good job for you ? I am sure there will be some gimmicks for the 2 yr extra warranty. Moreover i would reckon that this Ipod will work fine for a good few years. And also .. do you think it will be hard to find a good Ipod replacement in 2 years time at a much cheaper price ? You can do the "logical" thinking yourself from here.

Add ons are always the items that earns the best margins. The BASIC attractive items are all good bargains until you add on the add ons. This is clearly a sales tactic. And i am glad i applied this into my advantage today.

I bought some external hard discs today. Well they are ALWAYS good valued compared to the last one you bought. So i am not going too deep into the mathematics here. But i think the future of such hard disk for now lies only in the design. Brand name would perhaps become more and more secondary. I decided my choice today BASED SOLELY on COLOR ! how superficially effective! Good work Toshiba.

Overall i didnt really enjoy today's computer parade. EXPO is a good place but i prefer Suntec still. At suntec at least the goods are separated into a few levels. Those who are zooming into smaller products like empty discs, small thumb drives can just go to the higher floors and avoid the mindless LCD panel auctions with the biggies at the main halls.

I took no less than 10 mins to move from booth to booths. Perhaps it is the last day, thats why discount hunters come by train in swarms.

If you feel that the economy is in recession and you need a uplifting pill, always go down to these computer fairs. They give you the feeling that its really just United states. Singapore's OK. ok ?