Did you ever start to notice

Today Michael jackson died while i was sleeping on my bed at 3am my local time.

The time that he died I was sleeping.

I only come to know about it 7am in the morning over the radio. My heart didnt sink that immediately until i saw it for myself on cnn.com.

I spend my first hour in the office listening to the broadcast of his death. Slowly the truth sank in.

But my day was busy at work which didnt allow me to think too much into in till evening when i started to wind down.

The memories of his MTV and also songs passed my mind. I am quite a big fan of him and his songs. I totally enjoy him for who he is. This includes his songs, dances , showmanship and his life.

My brother sms me in the morning telling me about this news. I think it is equally a big thing for him as well. But i think it really allow us to sit back and think and recall how this idol of ours saw us thru our childhood.

In the next few days the world will be mourning for him and als digging deep into his history books to relive the moment. We are well aware of the drill.Yet this is what will happen. Itsa hype when someone goes. It forms a hype again . Imagine if he is just still ok now... we wouldnt even care about youtubing his old MTVs and redeicover how well he dance. And perhaps.. how cool that moonwalk is.

I all along have michael jackson's music and MTV in my Ipod....

Today on the way back home.. ipicked the softer ones to listen. " Will you be there " and "gone too soon " . I felt a sense of lost at thebus stop when i was listening to this. Thats when it perhaps started to sunk in that we have lost him. Its a passing phase sadness but it is sadness that only a few can give. He is afterall a TRUE idol of my growing up.

I am now flipping thru some MTV in youtube of his... Somehow i really think he is influential to my life.

The first english album casette that i have bought is his Dangerous Album. i remembered that the first song that i learnt consciously was his " who is it " . I subsequently learnt his other songs and it actually helped me improved my english.

sigh ... i walked to Popular CD shop to findhis album. Found but left it on the rack .

Just hope that my idol has proceeded to a better place.

And thank you so much for being who you have been to me.

Byebye my friend. I will still spin your songs always.