Alone in office

8 am. Alone in office. Friday. Somehow my boss arrives late. No one yet at this time. Usually they should be here already. Quiet time for me. Hope i can get to pen down some thoughts using this pocket of time.

Long week. Rather tired because i have been coming in at 8 am all week. Perhaps this is nothing as compared to those people working in hawker centre or wet markets where they have to wake up much much earlier.

Always there will be someone having worse than me. For sure. But I am feeling the toll on my body as well as mental stability. But i think i am managing pretty ok. I did not break down or whatsoever. Just feel tired and feeling like giving up but in a calm manner.

Everyday at day end i feel tired and aimless because i know tomorrow i will end the day the same way. I have no positive outlook to look forward to perhaps except the pay check at the end of the month which to me is really not so important actually perhaps. Less money problem but more mental problem. Give and take. Once i am on the greener pasture on one end i lose the other. This perhaps is something i have totally missed out because i have my working ideals.

Working in a fast paced environment is not my forte. I think i am a person who likes to take my time in doing something. Is this a matter of getting use to ? I am really not sure yet. Maybe i will give it 1 more week and see how it goes.

I am only one person. But i know i have to be tough. Be tough will see me through.