Saturday, April 21, 2007

A stranded feeling

I am not sure whether i have recovered from my trip to Chiang Rai because i am not really feeling myself back yet from the trip. Somehow i do not feel that my soul is with me because it is like a daze still.

I did well in making my entrance again to work. I remembered how to carry out my work. But i feel that i am not me yet. I am not in touch with myself and i seem to have left myself in Chiangrai still wanting to feel more and reach out more.

Not that i feel that i am lazy to work just that i feel unreal to work back here. The meaning of life is so different in a place that is not as progressed. I look at my computer screen what does it mean ? So surreal. So un-life.

Yet i should know i am here as a city person. It is not realistic to look at them and feel weird about who i am because i am really fortunate to enjoy so much more an easier life as compared to them.

I am consciously pulling myself back when i start to get too comfortable with my life now. I want to keep the mentality that i have gotten when i am there in chiang rai. It is valuable feeling that would keep me knowing that life is more than what i am used to seeing here in singapore.

i would imagine somehow i would need to take a break off from all these things in singapore someday and enjoy life as it is from their point of view.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Leaving me stranded in time

I never met Sky before ( my wife's friend whom she knew while taking part in a summer camp in the states). Sky is from Chiangrai,Thailand. The only image of her is from the pictures that was taken at the summer camp but through words from my wife i roughly expected the person i am about to meet when we set foot in Chiangrai Airport after a short ride from Bangkok.

My wife was nervous because it has been 3 years since they last met. But it is all good when we pop our heads out of the exit finding a cheerful dark skinned lady donned in a hawaiian like shirt waving at us. My wife and Sky hugged ( the usual ) yet somewhat special because it is the first time each of them has met since the summer camp that took place in the USA. I must say I find it somewhat special to see them finally hugged again.

It is already late afternoon when we reached Sky's house ( which is a drive away from the city into the suburbs of a suburb chiangrai) so it is really very suburb. With nothing but paddy fields racing pass your view on either side of the car it is almost immediately a refreshing sensation for city dwellers like us.

Sky and us chatted a little. It took some warming up but it is getting better by the minute.

It is the Songkran period, a festive season for the thailanders. It is also known as the water throwing festival because during this time thais will throw water at people to celebrate their new year. Along the way to her place we already saw some people lining the roads with water buckets splashing water at cars passing by.

To our surprise, Sky wanted us to join her to do the soil ceremony ( getting soil from the river bank and bringing it to the temple. A truck reversed into her house and many friends or relatives came around it to prepare the truck for the Songkran stuff. I saw buckets being loaded onto the truck . Immediately i know we are in for very very native fun. Soon i found myself sitting at the back of the truck holding a water hose filling up the buckets with water.

While the truck set off the whole village ( not the whole but a handdful ) jumped onto the truck holding containers to scoop the water ready for songkran water war. The truck drove slowly, the wind blew nicely on our face, we are on the dust roads, bumpy but the view is great. Paddy fields and corn fields and in the backdrobe, mountains. I felt peaceful for a snap moment. But was awaken when the first water spalshed into my face . I was not prepared to retaliate but that was the moment i felt that i am in the midst of a truly genuine celebration and i feel honoured to be part of them (Sky's family).

We continue with the splashing when we pass by any groups of people holding the same water buckets. It was really fun even though they mumbled a language that i did not understand. But i think i understood the emotions behind the mumbles. I was handed a cup of beer by Sky's brother's friend. What a gesture. On one hand i hold the beer cup on the other holding a bucket ready to play my part in the songkran. With the wind, the bump road, the paddy field , the endless laugthers and the cold cold water that splash onto you, i am not sure whether this joy could have been replicated.

Like the locals we hopped off the truck once we reached the river bank to fetch sand ( for the temples). We visited two temples and unloaded the sand and prayed before we left. Sky was explaning some of the stuff to us ( trying really hard to make sure that we understand what was going on ) . I felt that she really love us to be part of this party.

We arrived back to her house and washed up. Somehow we sat on a stone chair and along came Sky's father. He tried to talk to us but it is immpossible to understand him or for him to understand us (despite him working in singapore for a year as a construction worker many years back ). He called for Sky and ask her to bring us to his paddy field on the motorbike.

Imagine me, my wife and sky on a small scooter driving into the paddy fields. The scooter went slow but Sky did well in bring us their. Paddy fields literally brushing through our ankles as we moved into the centre of the plains. It was then evening time. Sunset at the paddy field is quiet, peaceful and hopeful. I cannot explain the joy but the very fact that i could remember so clearly now makes me feel thankful that all these has happened.

Night falls. We went back for dinner. Dinner with the villagers is worth another article by itself.

It is only the first day but looking back it is the best day of this trip because it is genuine, undisturbed culture that was flashed in front of us. Welcomed by them into the family, into their culture is priceless.

Thank you Sky.

Songkran











Sunday, April 15, 2007

Finally, I did my 'save the africa'




I want to put it nonchalantly. But i know this is not a trip that falls short of a strong meaning behind it. By visiting the hilltribes of chiangrai province i have come face to face with more than words can really describe. Many of the teachings i have got by visiting the tribe comes from within them and then within me.




unlike my last trip to chiangmai where i see only the progress. now i see the people who didnt want the progress (for their very own good).


It is songkran here in chiangrai as well as in the hilltribes too. They played water like any kid would. I see the joy in them that i could not really replicate within myself.


I had my michael jackson moment too where kids chased behind me (with me holding a bag of chocolate wafer snacks) , awaiting me to give it out to them. I did give it out one by one to them. They did not rush me , and said thankyou to me holding their palms together and greeted me. innocent and pure child like.


i imagine. if i were to give out PSP's to kids in singapore, firstly i would see a scramble, secondly i may not get enough 'thank you ' counts.


anyway not important.


have some nice pictures to share. they should be more than words to me for now.




Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Ukulele concert

it was a night of memories old and new. when the dup sang thru their years of memories i am creating mine with my wife in the crowd. Looking back it is a concert that we will remember for some good years ahead.

the songs grew up with us even though some songs we sang it in full only on their last concert. Rather special in a sense...

ukulele is really special for people our age. it has always been there .. even though with just few very good songs . It always seem like they have never been apart.

To them i think being able to sing together again does not mean they will continue the road together as singers. but more of for the sake of reliving the better days they have written for their lives. and fufilling the dream of the genuine audience that night.

goodbye to ukulele . the cd will still be spinning the ever green songs they have given us.