A stranded feeling

I am not sure whether i have recovered from my trip to Chiang Rai because i am not really feeling myself back yet from the trip. Somehow i do not feel that my soul is with me because it is like a daze still.

I did well in making my entrance again to work. I remembered how to carry out my work. But i feel that i am not me yet. I am not in touch with myself and i seem to have left myself in Chiangrai still wanting to feel more and reach out more.

Not that i feel that i am lazy to work just that i feel unreal to work back here. The meaning of life is so different in a place that is not as progressed. I look at my computer screen what does it mean ? So surreal. So un-life.

Yet i should know i am here as a city person. It is not realistic to look at them and feel weird about who i am because i am really fortunate to enjoy so much more an easier life as compared to them.

I am consciously pulling myself back when i start to get too comfortable with my life now. I want to keep the mentality that i have gotten when i am there in chiang rai. It is valuable feeling that would keep me knowing that life is more than what i am used to seeing here in singapore.

i would imagine somehow i would need to take a break off from all these things in singapore someday and enjoy life as it is from their point of view.